On Pain

Well, the Avett Brothers concert was AMAAAZING. J and I had so much fun and I’m thrilled we got to go. Unfortunately I left my camera at home and had to buy a disposable in KC. So – I have to be old school and wait to get them developed before I can share them. Until then, here’s a pic I found online to give you a glimpse of where we were:

This is where we ate dinner. Grinders boast great New York style pizza and sandwiches. They were even featured on Diners, Drive-Ins, and Dives! They have a pretty impressive draft beer selection too. I had an Old Rasputin which I couldn’t believe they had on tap!

Delicious! Crossroads KC, the venue that hosted the concert is located immediately behind Grinders in a courtyard-type outdoor area. Thankfully, the rain stopped just before the concert, but wow was it cold! We had brought ponchos just in case it rained and ended up putting them on just to stay warm!


Now on to the meat of this post:
Remember how I mentioned that it’s important and valuable to listen to our bodies, even if it makes us feel weak? I said that often my body tells me things that make me feel weak but it is still beneficial to listen to it because that means I’m taking care of myself. While that is all true and still applies, I need to mention that sometimes it’s just as beneficial to NOT listen to your body. Sometimes when my body says I’m weak it is lying. Sometimes the weakness is just more of that negative self-talk.

Today, I am in pain. I have endometriosis. From the Endometriosis Association website: Endometriosis is a painful, chronic disease that affects at least 6.3 million women and girls in the U.S., 1 million in Canada, and millions more worldwide. It occurs when tissue like that which lines the uterus (tissue called the endometrium) is found outside the uterus. This misplaced tissue develops into growths or lesions which respond to the menstrual cycle in the same way that the tissue of the uterine lining does: each month the tissue builds up, breaks down, and sheds … the blood and tissue shed from endometrial growths has no way of leaving the body. This results in internal bleeding, breakdown of the blood and tissue from the lesions, and inflammation — and can cause pain, infertility, scar tissue formation, adhesions, and bowel problems.

Today, my body is telling me it hurts. It makes me want to dwell on the pain and think about how much it sucks. But that doesn’t help anything. It just makes me sad. So on days like today, I will choose to NOT listen to my body. Because sometimes that’s better. Today, I’m going to do what I need to do, take breaks if necessary, and continue to live my life gratefully and thankfully. Today is still a gift, whether or not my body is in pain. Today is still beautiful. And so am I, even when my body tells me otherwise. I am beautiful and strong and I will make it through this.

Some people feel that pain is the worst thing in the world. While I certainly don’t like it, it doesn’t really bother me. I try to put a positive spin on pain. Pain reminds me that I am human, not in control, and not strong on my own accord. My strength comes from the Lord, not from myself. When I think of it this way, I am able to keep going. Pain also creates in me a whole new appreciation for the good days and I think I need a reminder like that every now and again.

So just because I hurt doesn’t mean I have to suffer. I will choose to stay positive.

“Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional.” –Anonymous


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  1. #1 by Melinda on September 27, 2010 - 1:14 pm

    I miss Grinders. We’ve had a ton of fun there. Have you dined at Blue Koi on 39th? Their handmade noodles and rice cakes are sublime.

    • #2 by seemelrun on September 28, 2010 - 2:21 pm

      No, Melinda, we haven’t tried Blue Koi but I think I’m definitely going to after looking at their menu!! Thanks for the recommendation.

  2. #3 by Kayla @ Let's Live Wholesome on September 27, 2010 - 2:46 pm

    First of all, any place with an epic tap beer selection has my heart 😉

    Secondly, you are such a great writer, truly. I couldn’t agree more with what you have to say. The times when we’re experiencing the worst pain, physically/emotionally/otherwise, puts the rest of our pain-free time into perspective. Knowing the pain will always let up is soothing beyond measure, as pain only lasts for a season. This season could be one day to one year, but it is always just a season!

    I am so sorry you’re experiencing the pain of endomitriosis, and I can’t imagine what you’re going through. But rest assured that your outlook on your situation is incredibly uplifting and inspiring for the rest of us.

    • #4 by seemelrun on September 28, 2010 - 2:19 pm

      Thanks SO much for your encouragement & kind words! Hoping this pain season ends soon… 🙂

  3. #5 by Kristy W. on October 1, 2010 - 8:28 am

    I just got caught up on your posts. I really liked this one about pain. You are a wonderful woman, and I’m proud of you with how you are dealing with everything. And still taking care of yourself!! 🙂 You give me encouragement, and to be more thankful of all the blessings that might normally seem insignificant. Like my health, for example. I should be more thankful of how healthy I feel today, because tomorrow could be a different story. Have a great day, talk to ya soon!!!

    • #6 by seemelrun on October 2, 2010 - 1:10 pm

      Thanks Kristy! Glad it could give you some encouragement… Looking at pain is a positive way is the only way I can make it through sometimes, and it certainly does make me thankful for when I feel well!

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