“You can do it!”
“You’re stronger than this!”
“Of course it hurts! Stop being a baby!”
“Nothing great comes easy!”
And so went my inner dialogue while running yesterday. As I headed out for my hot, insanely windy run, I vowed to be my own personal trainer because I knew it was going to be hard (3.9 miles!) Believe it or not, internally screaming these phrases actually gave me a lot of motivation. As I turned around at the halfway point I was really feeling it. I was still a bit sore from the cross-training cycle the day before and the hot sun and blasting wind was tearing me up. My heart rate was getting really high and as much as I kept yelling at myself, my internal caretaker started kicking in. “Listen to your body! You need to walk & get your heart rate down!” So I did. Which I hated.
Listening to my body sucks. Because usually what it tells me makes me feel weak. I hate feeling weak. So as I listened to my body I also started beating myself up with some negative self-talk.
What kind of crap is that? Negative self-talk is one of the most destructive things a person can engage in. Nothing good ever comes of it, and usually it just makes you feel like a failure.
So. I decided that while my body felt weak, my mind was strong and I could choose to woman up and kick this negativity’s butt. I started telling myself positive things. “You CAN do it. So what if you need to take a break? This is training, not a race! You’ve only been seriously running for two months. TWO months! You can’t expect your body to perform like someone who’s been running for years. You’re doing great! You’re moving WAY more than you were a year ago. You should be proud that you listened to your body rather than hurting yourself.”
And you know what? Before I knew it, I was done, and I felt fantastic. I didn’t finish as fast as I would like but who cares? I’m going at my own pace and hey – at least I’m going! I completed 3.9 miles in 45 minutes. Not too shabby!
Negativity is one of my biggest struggles but I’m starting to realize the the harder I am on myself, the worse I feel, and the weaker I am. It’s harder but far more beneficial to stay positive. And the more positive self-talk I engage in, the easier it gets and the more I benefit from it.
What kind of positive things do you say that keep you going?
“Instead of giving myself reasons why I can’t, I give myself reasons why I can.” – Author Unknown